the urge to live
is gone from my soul
I have nothing left
I've lost all control
I'm locked in a cage
I need to be freed
beauty so uncanny
it cannot be seen
by most of the population
they've lost the sensation
of living
and breathing
of seeing
and being
it pays so little
but costs a lot
what would you give
to grab a spot
in the books
in the texts
in the histories
of humanity

the popular vote
has gone to the dogs
I'm a ship at sea
in a social fog
I'm stuck in one place
yet moving all the time
held in slow motion
at the drop of a dime
holding my breath
can't take the suspensel
ife so complete
it don't have to make sense

A Room

it's getting hot in here
if you know what I mean
blood on the walls
it's a murder scene
catching sight of past horrors
in the darkness and din
the last hollow note
of a monster's sweet hymn
you can hear all the sin
it resounds through the walls
life come and gone
as the dark city calls
the life of the night
is lost in the room
death is all you find here
even that'll be gone soon

Within

the rain smells like fire
a burning depression
commit to my soul
a sacred obsession
the cult's not enough
satanic - too weak
not powerful enough
for this kind of relief
bordering on insanity
jumping lines
breaking down walls
destroy that which defines
my being, my soul
my lack of true faith
in the world, in the men
that dictate the divine
opression's too heavy
supporesion - not worth it
I try to diffuse
the pressures that surface
I cannot succeed
but I'll try again
to take on the anger
and pain that's within

Timelessness

time slows itself
on this spacious earth
as it tries to hide
from emotional worth-
(less-ness) of it all
crashes down on me
too much to live
not enough to be
it's all relative
as my mind slows down
but I can't pull back
it's the life I chose
to live with myself
it all comes back
as I crash and burn
it's a cold hard fact
it's not what we wanted
didn't sign up for this
we try so hard
but can't help but miss
because you're always gone
too much to do
never felt so wrong

Top to Bottom

this strange town
has got me on edge
and you caught me
climbing the way
to freedom
I was on top
but I just can't stop
and think straight
the words are jumbled
falling out of my mind
I'm going to fast
I can't wait this time
to tell you
that I'm leaving you behind

Anymore

been crying more lately
too much going on
how can I take it
everything's going wrong
there's no way to handle
this mass of misery
just leave me alone
oh why can't you see

I don't need you to tell me
what went wrong
I don't need you to help
me along/with my issues
you're making it worse
but I don't want to fight
this anymore (anymore 3x)

These Dark Streets

when your eyes search the room
do they find me?l
ost in the gloom
you're all I see
doom and destruction
rule this city
but I'll survive this revolution
if you come with me

gothic days
demons in the night
I won't die here
I'll live and I'll fight

you're running for your life
and I can't catch you
you're tearing yourself apart inside
and I can't save you
it's dark in the city
you can't run away
the light's not so pretty
as you watch the demons play

so you escape with me
from this city called Eden
the golden ones pray
as they stay here bleeding
we cannot save them
or we won't survive
we can't go back
dead or alive

gothic days
bloodshot nights
the fighting must stop
whe'er I live or I die