Lies about Lucy Drabble #1

Whispers. They were always whispering.

Of course she couldn't hear them. Why be bothered with actual noise when you could just stand in the silent torture?

Much to her dismay, no one came to talk to her. That would make it easier. That would give her information.

Unfortunately she was doomed to stay in the dark, never knowing what people were saying. Where were friends when you needed them?

--

Ben. Again.

Okay, so, yeah. I decided not to break up with him. *raucous cheers* I know - fabulous.

So what if I don't seem uber excited about it? I mean, it's not THAT big of a deal...goodness.

ummm...yeah. idk I talked to him about the whole flirting thing and he's going to try and stop. it'll be necessary to check up on that every once in a while, but it should be okay...

but yeah, just wanted to give a heads up on that.

Ben

i. Ben
a. We should just be friends
1. Flirting with Carmen/other girls
- It bothers ME: I can’t take all of the random grabbing people from behind and the winking and the random flirting. I have a tolerance level, but it does not extend that high.
- It bothers CARMEN: Do you know how weird it looks when you stand beside your girlfriend’s best friend instead of by your girlfriend? Really weird.
2. Hygiene issues
- The cologne thing: okay, it’s not THAT big of a deal, but really. Is it that difficult? I don’t think so.
- Teeth: um, gross. ‘nuff said.
- Acne: Have you seen Drew? His pizza-face-ness is NOT pretty. And no, I don’t care whether it will ever get that bad. All I know is that right now it’s gross, at best. So DO something about it! It’s really not that difficult!
- Sleep: I’m kinda tired of calling you in the morning to make sure you’re up. I don’t do it THAT often, but it’s obnoxious that I have to do it at all! And I KNOW you are very stressed and thus stay up super late but really. I manage to get up at six every morning – why can’t you?
3. emotional dependency
- work load: I know you’re super duper stressed with all your work, but it’s getting unhealthy. You need to know when to stop, and you DON’T.
- I can’t keep being used as an emotional crutch. Maybe sometimes, I suppose, but that’s a best friend job; not a girlfriend. At least, not completely.
4. Random other stuff that bothers me
- The random noises you make? They aren’t cute. They’re weird.
- No matter how much we try, the junior-freshman thing is not going to work. I need to hang out/date kids my age. It’s just a fact.
5. Contribution from Niobe?

Twilight is becoming the new generalization...

Yeah, you know you know what I'm talking about!

"he's such a MIKE"

"she's such a jessica!"

"ewwww he's a tyler"

"omg what an Edward "

Oh, you KNOW what I mean.

so yeah, maybe I have a few of my own.

WHAT??! don't act like it's uncommon!!!

SO. FIRST.

We have our....

Edward.

Guess who?

Oh, you KNOW who.

that's right.

Ben.

((go figure))

And WHY, you may ask, is Ben EDWARD?

well lemme tell you.

Ben is Edward bc Ben has decided to be completely selfless, overthinking, kinda awesome at like everything (except a few things, but hey, he's only human *coughhackdie*), and, oh, maybe just REALLY PALE WITH AWESOME HAIR.

right.

So THEN we must find out the OTHER HALF!!!

Remember, this doesn't actually apply most of the time. but it totally applies RIGHT NOW so i'm going to USE IT, DAMMIT!

My Jacob?

((Yeah, in case you didn't catch that, the next person i'm talking about is Jacob.))

Whoa. go figure.

soooo.....he's....

Chris (Hensel, I mean)

It's crazy shit, man!!! Like, you never would've thought it, but he kinda is. I mean, it's really random and whatnot, but he IS really warm and cuddly (and him being warm-ish was how I realized how this all fit) and he's kinda tall and...well, he generally looks like Jacob, and although he doesn't work with cars, he is in Vet school, so yeah. And he's older than me, not younger, but it's about the same age difference.

AND when we were at csz him and Ben were all like *claim Sarah*. It was amusing. Not necessarily consistant (Ben claimed a lot) but still...enough that it counts.

Okay, so, laugh at me all you want. it's a silly theory, I know. But at the same time, it TOTALLY fits.

OH! ONE LAST THING!

Mike = Mike

*shudder*

((IKR??!))

But yeah. So....there's that little thought...yaaaaay...

okay, have fun now.

Hope you enjoyed my fascinating little spiel there.

ps: ttly sorry for not posting last night; my cpu was being a bitch...ack. :(

~Sarah

Just So You Know

http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VcUH3Kdrmi0

...watch it.

I loved it.

It was...meaningful.

Even for Jesse [McCartney].

Hope you like it.

<3

THE LIST

The List

Yup, that's right, people. I'm officially making a list. You know you want to be on it. Everyone does. Because it's a GOOD list! It's my list of favorite people. Biased, I know, but true. And if I don't keep a list then I'll never be able to remember who I'm currently concentrating my efforts on...

To the list, then!

1. Carmen - Because you are magnificent (<- word of the...month?!) and wonderful and probably won't even be angry that I'm totally taking your color-ing scheme :)

Plus you're the bestest friend ever. I mean, most people would've probably abandoned me by this point - whether due to my lack of smoothness or blatant disregard of anyone else's feelings - but you, saint (or martyr?) that you are, managed to deal with me for long enough to whip me into shape...that's right, Carmen. I'm whipped. Are you proud of yourself? :P

2.Ben - okay, so, maybe not the BEST person for the job, but you people've got to admit that he's awesome...I mean, he's funny, interesting, cute enough to be nice to look at, and generally nice to talk to and hang out with. [insert long-ish paragraph about Ben in which I complain about our teeter-totter relationship...I'll put that in another entry...] He's an amazing friend, and even though he's not quite as awesome as Carmen and is sometimes clingy, I can't help but remember how much fun we have.

3. Chris (Hensel, for those of you who are complete idiots) - He's, like, fantastic... :) I mean, we had MAAAAAJOR issues earlier (bad fight...ack, not going into it!) but now we're all good, except for the part where he's at PURDUE (A.K.A. worst place ever). I mean, I can stand it most of the time (for instance, he's coming home for a visit this weekend) but I am SLIGHTLY worried about when I turn sixteen and it's then legal for us to do "shit"...right. We'll see how THAT goes down...

3.5. Jake - This dude...alright, well, my reader(s) know why he's third(-ish) on my list, but that's not the ONLY reason why he's third. We're not the BEST-est of friends, but from what all I do see of him, I positively love. He's nice, and funny, and a GREAT boyfriend, although not to anyone who deserves it... *cough* Really, though, besides the huge temper issue, he's a great guy, and an awesome friend. ish.

4. Michael - Okay, so, he's steadily lost points since we started being friends...but he's reliable, if nothing else. I mean, who else will agree with me on virtually anything, and go along with my every whim? Um, no one! At least, not both at the same time. So I'll just deal with his freakish clinginess and need for love...somehow...

4.5 Rachael - Oh, rachael...She know I love her...but really, eventually it gets so very tiresome to deal with all her shit all the time. Not to mention the fact that she's COMPLETELY screwing over Jake, whom happens to be tying for third on The List. Not cool. But in the end she's pretty fun to hang out with, and random enough to keep my interest.

5. Maddie - She used to be much higher, but now we're drifting apart, and I'm not happy with how she's treating a lot of the issues in her life. Like Rachael, she refuses to realize that her life actually MATTERS to some people, and that some things are just necessary to deal with! But I still love her, which is why she's still on this list.

Ummm....Wow, I just realized that, except for Carmen, all of the commentary on these were somehow a complaint...that's rather depressing. But oh well. I still love everyone on there, and maybe I'll have some good things to say soon :)

For those of you reading, I apologize for having such a depressing entry for you...I'll do better, I swear!!!

Romeo Ain't Got Nothin' On Me

Okay, so, I can talk about this since the only people reading my blog are...one person...*cough* so yeah.
life, as a whole, isn't too bad. i mean, everyone has their problems...everyone. including me.
mine aren't too bad...but then again, there's this ongoing one...it's not so easy to deal with. and now that i've told someone (you lucky bastard, you...) i feel like everyone should know. but they shouldn't. which makes it THAT much harder!!!
Most people don't like their (best) friend's boyfriend. because it's awkward. and at the same time, most people who DO like their (best) friend's boyfriend don't try to help them along as a couple. it's just insanity! so why do i do it? bc i'm insane. -.-
you know what i did tonight? (tonight being valentine's day) i babysat for six hours, and talked to both my (best) friend and her boyfriend. yup, the one i like. probably one of the most tiresome things ever. like, emotionally draining. one last part of my convo with her consisted of:
"...jake was sweet about it though"
"lol you guys are so cute. :]"
"i dont want anyone else. ever really :)"
"[well i think you're good.]" <-- i don't remember what I wrote there... "im very good. haha" it's SO hard to be supportive of someone when you know that 1. they're completely and totally unhealthy for him, and 2. you like their boyfriend! I feel like I'm rambling too much about this...but yeah. I'm not happy :( so basically, Valentine's Day was a bust....